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no, i’ve built so many protective walls that its hard for me to trust just anyone.

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definitely;

with a family of my own and a husband to accompany me. (: 

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i think that education is very vital and should be taken seriously.

however, these past few days/months or even years—

i havent been trying at all.

i actually gave up on it;

i didnt see a future in me.

i didnt feel the need to be educated when i knew that i was going nowhere.

i felt useless,

dumb,

and just plain hopeless in everything i ever looked forward to.

i guess what im trying to say is, 

i’m a little to late to realize how much education should mean to me.

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why do i find this so funny? lol

(via truth-hurts--lies-heal)

• im more self-conscious
• im more open to people with my feelings/problems 
• im more self-aware of what im going through
• im even more infatuated with a certain someone because of my decisions
• im easily taken aback and less concentrated on my studies (a.k.a. more procrastinating, less studying)
• i’ve built more walls more than i ever had to before
• i’ve neglected people’s feelings without giving them a chance
• ive hurt and disappointed people including myself
• i dont smile as often as i used to anymore
• i find myself going on tumblr as a way of escape
• i find myself not wanting to believe in “love”
• i find myself going downhill whenever life fucks me over
• i am not the same since 2010

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there’s this guy who seems really mysterious.

i cant really put my fingers on it, but i think (this is just an assumption) he likes me.

but then again, its just an observation—

and if you’re wondering; no

he is not the guy i’ve been referring to my previous post(s) 

(this was just a random “someone”)

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i actually find it revolting but at the same time, i wish part of me did—

maybe not to the extreme point where they would disown me, but i just want to show them for once what i truly feel—

i have never talked back to my parents, so its hard for me to bluntly say what i want from them—

in fact, even when they’re the one in wrong, i just keep it all in.

unlike my other siblings who are straight up with their feelings, i cant seem to do the same.

i guess its one of those things i cant change about myself—

i kinda hate it;

• not being able to convey what i feel without seeming like im talking back
• not being able to admit that im hurt without hurting someone else
• not being able to defend myself without proving someone else wrong

which is why im getting tired of being nice all the time—

its annoying as fuck. (pardon my language)

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its really not something to feel eager about but, 

i cant wait till i figure out my own feelings.

i think im about to do something next week that could unravel a life-long question.

it could result into as a mistake, a regret or even a lesson—

but im willing to take that risk to find out what i truly feel about a certain someone.

i dont want to keep waiting, and wanting and hoping by simply doing nothing—

its about time i take some risks despite the consequences it might bring.

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“I think there’s plenty of hope. You’re a really nice person. And good things happen to good people. You have friends. And your family loves you even though they might be somewhat strict sometimes. You’re going to fall in love and get married and have kids. You’re going to have a great life.”

-this was said to me when i was on the verge of giving up everything—

and by everything.. i really mean like everything. 

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— the story line of this dream will not make any sense because its a dream and because i only remember bits of it—

i was at someone’s house, talking to people.. then i found myself at the beach, lying there, looking at the stars.. then back at the living room; out to the balcony, enjoying the breeze, then a hand reaches my shoulder… it was my crush.

(hahahaha oh gawd. that’s not even close to a wild dream, but that’s all i’ got)

i havent had any dream of some sort, for wayyy too long.

ive deprived myself from sleep—  and the thought of someone prevents me from doing so.

but then again, that doesnt explain why im not getting any dreams these days, right?

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probably, maybe.

i used to dream a lot about my future when i was young,

now that i have outgrown that 12 year old kid,

i cant help but imagine what happened to the young me and the person i am now.

we are like two completely different person.

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sometimes yes, sometimes no.

im not really the type of person who can adapt to change in an instant—

it takes me awhile or even years to let go of the things i grew fond of, so yeah..

everyone is different—

some may see it as a new beginning,

some may see it as the end of the world,

as for me,

i see it as another obstacle i have to go through in my life.

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well, i got my laptop back? 

but im not happy nor am i content.

if only my problems went away— only then will i be able to wear a smile on my face.

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let’s face it, there’s no way of changing one’s regret— you can only learn from it.

so i say, take the million dollars and replace your misery with success.

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